And today I had to get up to go to the markets cause there was the Mexican stall thing and apparently the food was really good....LIES it was SH*T!  But lucky I had waffles to save me.  So after that we went to the mall and I walked around a bit then we went into Myer and I got 2 books Airhead: Being Nikki by Meg Cabot and Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead which I got a very good price of $20 together! Cause the guy gave me 35% off on both by mistake lol so nowI have a few more books to read over the holidays after I finish The Hunger Games whihc I'm reading now.

So that's all I've done so far these holidays lol more like two days of them but whatever.  I'll post up my grades later cause for now I'm off to watch the HP crew and Short Stack on Rove ;)

BYE!

SEND *click*

Ok just sent out all my birthday invitations hope no one gets mad I didn't invite them, well except for Daise who I really don't like because she's so nosy and plain annoying.  But still I hope everyone understands and doesn't hold grudges forever like Rosella does, because seriously she needs to get over some of the things she holds against people.  Also I hope Katharine won't mind that I only invited my HS friends and not my old ones, although I don't really get why she's never taken a liking to my new friends or even tried to :(  I mean I did, when I met some of her friends I was nice and I sort of made friends with them like a good best friend should do.  It's not like 10 years of friendship doesn't count for anything she could at least try to talk to them.

Hmm I better get some sleep so I can get up tomorrow and try to discreetly hand out my invitations to everyone.

*Next day at school*

"Hey Christin," I said walking over to Christin and the rest of our group, to where we normally stand together each morning before school starts.
"Hey Vanora, what's up?" She asked
"Nothing much, what about you?" I replied
"Same," she said laughing, I was really anxious and wanted to give her and Meg their invites but Joss, Colin and Schmuel were sort of just standing there so I felt bad if I gave one to Christin but not everyone else, so then finially when everyone left I quickly give Christin hers and that was pretty much how my day went, while hand out invatations wise anyway.

I get home and after a little "nap", I check my emails, I get an email reply from Katharine about my party, she says she can't come because she's going to Sydney. I'm sad and a bit annoyed she can't come but it's probably for her dance or something.

Next day she send me a Bebo comment and I as why is she going to Sydney.  And it's because of the GREAT reason being that she's going shopping and already booked the hotel with her family and thought "I wasn't having a party this year".  Part of me says I shouldn't be so angry at her it's not her fault, there wasn't much notice and you did say you weren't sure if you were having a party.  But then another is like B*TCH! Only because we've been friends for 10 years and it's my 16th birthday, she knows that and I make sure I NEVER plan big things like going away to Sydney near her birthday or on her birthday weekend.  For something like shopping! Which she can do anytime, yet she chooses it be the weekend just before my birthday, my party weekend!

Although she does suggest we go to the movies in the holidays but that's not the same. Which makes me feel just guilt for being mad at her, cause I know she said sorry, but seriously if you think about WHY THE HELL WOULD MY BEST FRIEND PLAN SOMETHING LIKE SHOPPING IN SYDNEY SO CLOSE TO MY BIRTHDAY! I know I'll have the rest of my friends but it's not the same, because she's like a sister to me and I've know her almost my whole life, but she's changed so much since we both went off to different high schools.  I know everyone changes I have not much but enough to sort of tell but I swear she's not the same person I used share recess with when I was little and it really just hurts to think about you know, well I guess you might not.

So my dilemma is: Is it bad for me to be pissed off at her for not being able to come to my birthday part cause she already made plans to go shopping in Sydney?  Part of me says YES the other says NO

College…university…job…decision and future.  My future, my choice and my life…

It’s the last day; the last day to submit my college application that is, even though it’s just college, it’s suppose to be ‘the most important schooling years of your life’, at least that’s what my parents tell me and it’s what our school’s career advisor, Ms Stonem, is telling our year group right now.  We are outside today for our year meeting because the teachers thought everyone should get some vitamin D and sit in the dirt.  Everyone else seems to be listening intently and I really should be listening but I just can’t help my mind from wandering whenever this particular topic is brought up.